The Last Days

It's so weird to think of having another baby. I am so enjoying Jacob these days. I cherish the times I can spend completely focused on him. But every time I see a little baby, I think "Oh, that will be so nice". It's such a weird place to be. Boy, I used the word "weird" twice in one paragraph!

It's been such a long time since I've taken care of a newborn. I feel like I'll be learning it all over again. I just hope it's without all those insecure feelings. And yet, I think I felt pretty confident much of the time. Those early months are such a blur. I think life will have a little more shape the second time around.

Today, two old friends came over to help me get ready for baby. They did a bunch of dishes, helped make meatballs, and cleaned and blew up the birth pool. What a great gift!

Well, I need to go to bed.